That I wish I had a best friend. A best girl friend I mean. Jared is still working his crazy night schedules, and I'm home all alone, dinkin' around with the blog and watching The Time Traveler's Wife. I would love to have a friend to go hang out with when Jared's not around. Or even when he is around, really. Just that one special woman who just gets me, and I can laugh and cry with and is there to witness my life and be there to life me up when I need it and vice versa.
I've never had a best girl friend. Isn't that sad to say? It's not for lack of looking or trying really. I just never found the one woman that I just connected with, and no matter what we did or at what stage of life we were at, we enjoyed being together and had fun.
Sometimes I wonder if my expectations are too high. Like maybe I'm wanting more than anyone is capable of giving. And then other times I know she's out there. Somewhere is a best friend who shares the same interests I do, that will laugh at me when I'm crazy and cry with me during sad movies and just share the joy of the journey. Hopefully someday I'll find her.
Last night was bunco night and I had such a great time. The group is getting a lot more comfortable with eachother and every month it just gets better and better. I never fully appreciated the awesomeness of girl's night. It rejuvinates me. It makes me better able to get through the rest of the month. It gives me a break from real life, a chance to be silly and ridiculous. We've decided to do a bunco overnight and I CAN'T WAIT. I hope that it happens, because I can't imagine anything better than spending a whole night talking and laughing with the girls.
I read a lot. It is truly what I love to do most in the world. But lately I've been wondering if I've been substituting real relationships with made up ones in the books I read. Who knows? Maybe I've met the ultimate BFF and I just don't know it because my nose has been buried in a book. What's sad is.. I'm sure that statement is probably true.
I was sitting there last night looking at all the girls in my bunco group, and it just hit me that what I get from them I can never find in a book. Huh.
So, there you have it. The crazy inner workings of my mind!