Mar 12, 2010

It's Nights Like These...

That I wish I had a best friend. A best girl friend I mean. Jared is still working his crazy night schedules, and I'm home all alone, dinkin' around with the blog and watching The Time Traveler's Wife. I would love to have a friend to go hang out with when Jared's not around. Or even when he is around, really. Just that one special woman who just gets me, and I can laugh and cry with and is there to witness my life and be there to life me up when I need it and vice versa.

I've never had a best girl friend. Isn't that sad to say? It's not for lack of looking or trying really. I just never found the one woman that I just connected with, and no matter what we did or at what stage of life we were at, we enjoyed being together and had fun.

Sometimes I wonder if my expectations are too high. Like maybe I'm wanting more than anyone is capable of giving. And then other times I know she's out there. Somewhere is a best friend who shares the same interests I do, that will laugh at me when I'm crazy and cry with me during sad movies and just share the joy of the journey. Hopefully someday I'll find her.

Last night was bunco night and I had such a great time. The group is getting a lot more comfortable with eachother and every month it just gets better and better. I never fully appreciated the awesomeness of girl's night. It rejuvinates me. It makes me better able to get through the rest of the month. It gives me a break from real life, a chance to be silly and ridiculous. We've decided to do a bunco overnight and I CAN'T WAIT. I hope that it happens, because I can't imagine anything better than spending a whole night talking and laughing with the girls.

I read a lot. It is truly what I love to do most in the world. But lately I've been wondering if I've been substituting real relationships with made up ones in the books I read. Who knows? Maybe I've met the ultimate BFF and I just don't know it because my nose has been buried in a book. What's sad is.. I'm sure that statement is probably true.

I was sitting there last night looking at all the girls in my bunco group, and it just hit me that what I get from them I can never find in a book. Huh.

So, there you have it. The crazy inner workings of my mind!

7 comments:

The JAMC Johnsons said...

If we lived closer I'd come hang out with you! As it is, I know how you feel. Since we've moved I don't feel like I have a really close girl friend. I have friends, sure, but no one really close. My sister is my best friend, and she lives two states away!

K+B said...

I would LOVE to interview for the role of best girl friend!! I love your beautiful guts! what's funny is I keep thinking I"m going to pop over and bug you, but I worry I'll come when jared isn't working!

Michelle said...

I love this post!!! That's how I feel about Cali sometimes having my bff in Idaho. :( She is out there and you will find her. No need to change your expectations because she will be your bff and should be everything you want.

I am in love with your blog layout right now. I'm gonna email you. Did u do it all yourself? Love the damask pink paper on the top too. If you did this yourself you may be in trouble (hint,hint). :)

Jalei & Lane said...

I know that must be hard. It's hard for me living away from my BFFs. So I'm usually on the phone when Lane's gone with my parents.

The Rich's said...

dont' feel bad cait, to be honest i think we all feel that sometimes. but i'm so happy you are in bunco with me! you are the greatest SIL ever! love ya..

Regina said...

I consider myself very lucky to have 2 best friends! Not very many people have that and I am so so grateful. Probably because I am HORRIBLE at making new friends, so if I didn't have them my life would suck. Husbands are best friends, but there is something special about girlfriends and you will find yours!!

Monty and Kristin said...

I totally know how you feel. I love your honesty. I wish I could be this open and honest with my feelings. I admire that about you. I think you're awesome. Oh, and I can think of a few 'characters' in books or movies that I'd love to have for friends too!!